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Question: How do i help my heroin addicted best friend?
(Posted by: briiannuhhx3 on 2010-01-24 22:28:33)
My friend is 14 years old and she's been using heroin and other drugs for over two years. I know I can't help her get better if she doesn't want to get better, but I can't sit around and watch her kill herself. She's been in and out of rehab many times, along with psych wards and places of the sort... and she tells me she wants to get better each time she comes back. But it never lasts. She'll wind up using again or just fucking up in general. I want to help, but this is really having a huge impact on me, too. She's lied to me and manipulated me so many times, once when she ran away I called the girl she was with hysterical and sobbing asking if she had any idea where my friend was... and she listened to me cry while her friend lied to me, saying that she hadn't seen her at all that day. She waits until I fall asleep to use my computer and phone to get into contact with her dealers. When I see her, I have to leave my laptop home and take the battery out of my phone and hide it before I fall asleep. She's caused so many tears and sleepless nights, so much pain and sadness. I wish she would just be honest with me. I resent how she constantly hurts me. But I don't love her any less, and I get the feeling that she thinks she can keep doing fucked up shit to me and I'll never stop being her friend. Which scares me, because I don't think I ever could. She's back in rehab now, and I want to know everything I can do before she comes back home, even though I know there's not much. If anyone has had this problem, or if you yourself are an addict, is there anything i can do for her? Or at least to stop her from turning into this person I don't know? No matter how small and insignificant, anything i can do that may help is useful. Her mother is very much a part of the situation, but she's really just given up on my friend and wants to sign her over to the state. Which has just made everything worse because it's made her feel like more a of failure then she did in the first place, which is making her want to use more. It's a vicious cycle that spinning out of control and I'm afraid it's not going to end well for my friend. She needs to go to rehab and STAY there for a very long time... but it's so expensive, and insurance only covers so many months... And I talk to my friends about it, but I don't want to show them how destroyed I am. I don't want to be pitied or seen as weak. But everyone needs to vent a little. And please don't think I'm feeling sorry for myself. I'm not. I know I'm not the only one suffering in this... |
